The little things….make the biggest difference

I don’t really even know what to say anymore..it sucked so badly.What really pisses me off is that i KNOW i could have done better.But i somehow managed to mess up really badly.And throughout the whole thing those stupid cramps were so bad, i was trying to keep standing straight.

It occurs to me the more i think, the worse i’m making it for myself.but i can’t help but wish i’d known beforehand it was an individual thing.

Maybe i’m just being an idiot. Maybe i really can’t dance at all and i just don’t know it.Or maybe i do. Maybe I’m just in denial.Maybe I have zero talent that no amount of work can make up for.Maybe i’m mediocre.Maybe I don’t work enough. maybe.maybe.maybe.frustrating.

Someone told me to stop brooding.that it’s stupid to brood at this point of time.i suppose.but if anything positive comes out of this,it’s truly grace, cause God knows i screwed up.

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i don’t wanna think anymore

oh. cherry on the pie.that person(and i use the term loosely mind) just told me to get lost because she doesn’t like to be around unhappy people.yeah. like i reallly want to be around you. get your own house why don’t you?yep. really makes my day.

"Scoop the soup, chop the veggies, mash potatos"?

hahaha.awww.i feel like a five year old. X) hehehe

No contemp with Melissa cause she’s not teaching today?

So i’ll be perfectly on time for Susan’s class!yay!

I’m not really thinking straight at the moment as my brain hasn’t fully adjusted to operating on a minimal duration of sleep yet.

Elena’s Ballet on tuesday was fun, except forcing the 180 turnout, i realised i can stand in that position if highly pressured, but i can only stand and mantain it-.- Oh! but there was a cute/hot guy in class!hahaha. came to my attention courtesy of our dearest leezard=)

i love having prata with prata pals after sunday class!! they eat more than me!!! see! told you i wasn’t abnormal okay!hahah. can’t wait for this sunday too! more prata!=D

ooo. just got an sms saying we have to meet earlier. yikes. better run. cya’ll!!!

This is a rant, because some people are very irritaing.They insist on giving you a running commentary on everything you’re not interested in hearing, and when they finally shut up and let you you watch your show in peace, they have to run around in front of the screen because they need snacks to eat.On the rare ocassion when you have something to say during the advertisment breaks, they tell you not to comment and just let them watch the show in peace.could it be they’re simply head over heels in love with their own voices?or maybe they view other people as idiots?And then of course, there’re the ones who make nasty remarks when they feel that something on television is unsatistfactory, such as how the landing of the 12th pirouette was not perfect, when honestly, they can’t even hold a releve passe, let alone turn. why do people insist on insulting things they themself are not capable of?And then up comes the running commentary again, only this time, it’s to point out all the flaws, only to completely reverse their opinions and eat their words when the experts on the show think otherwise(as they rightly should).no one minds an honest comment now and then, but why do people have to pretend to know everything when their actually clueless on the subject??And of course, the people who get your number off those street interviews you do,and call you at all the weirdest hours to tell you you’ve been shortlisted for some i dunno what things, and when you tell them you’re not interested, they put on that arrogant tone of voice and say you don’t even know what it’s about, how can u say such things?maybe it’s because i’ve enquired after your company, and i’m simply not interested in anything you could offer me??And who could forget the jerk who thinks he’s God’s gift to women?and therfore every girl must be head over heels in love with him, must fall out because of him, must worship him???it’s unthinkable that any girl could NOT be in love with you,so he has to go around telling the wole world that so-and-so adores him.rahhhhhhhh

hmm. okie. just a ranting post.no, i’m not throughly pissed with the whole world, just a few select individuals.

1)I am one of the coolest,most co-ordinated people around. reasoning:have you ever seen anyone just slip and fall for no reason?even though i was NOT wearing heels/socks,the floor wasn’t slippery/wet/oily. i was walking bare footed, and somehow managed to trip and spill my water. soooooooo co-ordinated right.heh.my god, now i see why i stay off heels so much.cos this is me without them-.-

2)Don’t trust people so easily.

reasoning:old lesson,i don’t seem to have the "once bitten twice shy" reflex, i should really work on developing it.i just never learn do i?

3)Don’t believe everything you hear.aiya.common sense la. just need to bring it to forefront of my mind

hurhur.anyway, Just finished dinner after hip-hop,ALISON CHONG finally taught class.haha. okay,she was sick, not her fault. quite fun, more challenging than Tina’s,she’s doing reggae(sp?) hip-hop,loads of hip movement, half the time i was just standing there getting my basic hand-foot co-ordination together.yes, i am THAT co-ordinated okay.haha.nevermind, practice!practice!

went to watch dancefloor with denise and georgia yesterday. quite fun, cept for the bottom 3 part of course, i swear, soulfusion+bottom 3=fundamentally wrong.

but whatever, soulfusion rocks=)

have to keep voting.

people! sms D3 to 32623!!!!!!

after the show when we were waiting for pick-up, Denise taught us how to say "i am a dancer" in sign language.fun!!

I love my God, the one who never gave up on me or turned away from me even when i turned away from him in the false belief that other things were more important,the one who will alwaysalways be there, who loves me unconditionally even though i have never and will never do enough to deserve it.The one who taught me the meaning of Love

I love my friends, the ones who make me laugh when i am on the brink of tears,the ones who are always know what to say at just the right moment,the ones who care enough to speak up and say things i don’t want to hear when i need to hear them the most.

I love Dance, the beautiful art that bridges the gap, that expresses what cannot be expressed through any other means, that which goes beyond words,a form a magic in itself if you will

I love that feeling feeling you get when you feel nothing around you could go wrong, and all is right with the world

I love Love itself, which beautifies everything around us, which makes our world seem less cold and harsh,which colours everything it touches with vibrancy, hope, and joy.

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i woke up this morning, took a look around me, and found i had much to be thankful for, if only i opened  my eyes to see.

i just realised my com happily jammed up my previous posts and saved them instead of publishing them,therefore,ta-dah.multiple posts.

oh well.

anyway i stole this off jingxuan’s blog!

If you comment on this post,

1. I’ll respond with something random about you.
2. I’ll challenge you to try something.
3. I’ll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I’ll tell you something I like about you.
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours

but i’m not really in any danger because.

a)i’m quite certain 95% of the people i know are currently too busy to indulge

b)the other 5% are technophobic/I.T unsavy and therefore cannot find this

i just thought it was interesting, so it’s more for archival purposes=)

alright. gonna work on my horrigible turnout(which is terribly obvious on pointe).loves!

THEY SHOUTED “CRUCIFY”

AS HE STUMBLED ON THE ROAD

WEIGHT OF THE WORLD, ALL THE PAIN

THE CROSS BECAME HIS LOAD

HE WAS INNOCENT

YET ACCUSED AND BLAMED

SENT TO SAVE A FALLEN WORLD

TO BEAR ALL OUR SHAME

THEY SHOUTED “CRUCIFY”

AS HE CLIMBED THE LONELY HILL

BEARING THE SHAME OF THE MOCKING CROWD

WHILE HEAVEN EARTH STOOD STILL

HE WAS INNOCENT

YET ACCUSED AND BLAMED

SENT TO SAVE A FALLEN WORLD

TO BEAR ALL OUR SHAME

THIS IS YOUR SAVIOR

PURE LOVE OF HEAVEN

SENT TO DIE ON CALVARY TO BEAR THE SINS OF ALL

REJECTED CURSED TO DIE

LOVE SILENTLY ENDURED

HIS BLOOD POURED OUT AN OFFERING AT THE FOOT OF THE CROSS

THEY PUT A CROWN OF THORNS

UPON HIS BLEEDING HEAD

WHIPPED HIM AS HE STRUGGLED ON

HE UTTERED NOT A WORD

HE WAS INNOCENT

YET ACCUSED AND BLAMED

SENT TO SAVE A FALLEN WORLD TO BEAR ALL OUR SHAME

HAA…AAAH

FOR THE BROKENHEARTED FOR THE POOR,

THE WEAK FOR THE BLIND AND SEARCHING

HE SHED HIS BLOOD FOR YOU AND ME

in honour of the one who gave his all for us…

thank you abba.

have you thanked the lord today?